bar exam i think i hate you

bar exam i think i hate you

Bar Exam,

How do I loathe thee? Let me count the ways:

1. Contracts
2. Property
3. Torts
4. Criminal
5. Evidence
6. Constitutional Law
7. Agency and Partnership
8. Commercial Paper
9. Conflict of Laws
10. Corporations
11. Family Law
12. Wills
13. Secured Transactions
14. Trusts
15. Federal Civil Procedure
16. Alabama Civil Procedure
17. Alabama Civil Litigation and Remedies

SEVENTEEN!!! Seventeen areas of law in three days!?!? This was the realization I came to this weekend. I'm starting to freak out a little. I couldn't even manage all of this material in the three YEARS I have been in law school!! How am I going to get all of this packed into my head? I don't test well, and I read slow, which makes getting through all the questions in time hard. Bar-Bri ran a simulated test day yesterday... just the multiple choice day, not the essay part. I did NOT do well. I'm starting to really get scared, and the problem is there's not any way to get rid of the fear. Those who know what I'm going through are dealing with their own fears right now because they have to take this thing too.. so they can't really help. Besides, what are they gonna say? There's nothing to say that will make this better. The only thing that will make it better is more studying, and that's just sooooo painful. I feel like everyone is way ahead of me and doing better on the practice tests. I'm starting to really get scared that I'm gonna fail this thing. I can't get focused... distracted by life I guess. It seems as if every area of my life has drama in it right now. Things that have me worried and bothered. I know what my Mom would tell me... "You can't worry about those things right now. You have to turn that side of your mind off for a month and muscle though what HAS to be done. You've come too far to blow it now." And I know she would be right. It's just really hard to turn off emotions... to ignore what you want right now... to be able to discern between what's important and what's urgent and know that urgency has to take precedence over importance right now. I hate this. And what worries me the most is that I'll endure two months of this... hating it all the whle... only to fail the exam and have to hate my life until February when I can take it again.